34 Weeks

How far along: 34 weeks completed 08/28/2012.

Weight gain: Not sure, but I’ll know next week at my appointment whether or not I gained back those 2 lbs I lost. We shall see! With the Devon Market bakery right next to our new apartment, I’m thinking the pounds should pile on no problemo. My breakfasts for the past week included a Mexican doughnut, a pastry filled with some kind of pineapple curd, and two giant butter rum muffins peppered with tiny chocolate chips.

It’s all part of the ‘exploring the neighborhood’ experience . . . right?

Clothes: We’ve been unpacking all our clothes, some of which I had boxed up a long long time ago when I discovered I couldn’t fit them with my preggo belly. Rediscovering them has been fun, because I’ll be wearing them all again soon! Maybe not in exactly 6 weeks, but hopefully . . . shortly after that?

Purchases: I bought DVD’s of Anne of Green Gables and the sequel. I figured I want a nice stash of chick flicks to watch during my Hibernation time when Alice is first born, and these childhood movies are going to fit the bill perfectly. They’ve been sitting in my amazon.com cart for about 5 years (no kidding), so I finally ordered them and will save them for those long afternoons when (I’m told) it will seem like all I do is feed my baby girl.

Body: I’ve been feeling heavy in my belly for the first time. I’ve felt heavy overall before, especially going up long stairways (that happened pretty early on in pregnancy), but something this week has felt different. I hate to use the cliche of a bowling ball . . . but it really does feel like there’s a big, heavy sphere in my stomach, especially by the evening.

Alice should be weighing around 4 lbs now, and though she feels heavy I can still kind of tuck her away somewhere in the recesses of my absurdly long torso.

And after musing last week about how I need to stop lifting things, I’ve continued to struggle with this . . . and have lifted things anyway, even though my body has been telling me it doesn’t feel right anymore. I find it distressing that I don’t have more self-control. I’ve been valuing my physical independence over my physical well-being (and possibly Alice’s). Why can’t I just stop?? Why do I find it so hard to ask someone else to do things for me (someone else = my husband)?? Argh. I didn’t realize what a high value I put on my independence until now. It’s given me all new respect for people who are disabled long-term, and find a way to live fully and joyfully within their limitations.

Accepting limitations is hard, man.

Sleep: I seem to be needing a lot more of it all of a sudden. Sunday, for example, we got home from church, lunch and goings-on around 3:30pm. I was feeling beat, beat, beat, so I lay down on the couch and napped. And it was no cat-nap–I’m talking two hours of sleep, from 4-6pm. I woke up feeling much better, but wondered if this hefty nap would interfere with my 10:30 bedtime.

Well . . . it didn’t. I slept like a rock.

Best moment(s) of the week: I know I can’t shut up about this, but feeling my roly poly little girl rollying and pollying inside is just indescribably wonderful. Giving her a poke and feeling her kick back . . . well, indescribably = I can’t describe it. ‘Nuff said.

Movement: She’s startled me a couple times with the strength of her punches, but most of her movements seem to be rolls and squirms.

One night, Adam was kind of jiggling the spot where her head/butt/lumpy part was pushing out, and she pushed back! He did this four or five times, with Alice pushing back when he stopped. It was the most precious father/daughter conversation I’ve witnessed.

Food cravings/aversions: Nothing to report.

Symptoms: Like I mentioned, I need more sleep! I’m feeling more fatigued after regular days at work that didn’t used to exhaust me so much. I’m glad this extra tiredness hit after the move and not too much before! Though it does slow down the setting-up-house process a bit . . .

Emotions: I’ve been feeling great! Eager to be fully moved in, but also enjoying the process of getting furniture in the right place and moving things into drawers and so forth.

My job has felt harder than usual, but not because there’s more work–quite the opposite! As I put more and more into the hands of my (very competent) temp, I have more time just sitting around with nothing to do. Which is boring. And makes me antsy and stir-crazy. But this is a good problem! It means when my maternity leave starts, I will no longer be holding onto any reins at the office, and I can sever myself fully for 3 months.

Hopes and dreams: I’m thinking a lot about giving birth. A few of my friends who have given birth recently have had rough experiences, which is a wake-up call to me. Things might not go according to the pretty plan in my head, in which I labor at home until contractions are 1 minute long and 3 minutes apart (for at least an hour), proceed to the hospital where I have a fully natural birth that is painful but manageable and brings me and my husband closer together, and within 6-7 hours of arriving at the hospital have a healthy baby girl who immediately goes onto my chest (where of course she latches on to breastfeed within the first hour or so).

So I’m trying to let go of expectations . . . not put pressure on myself or deceive myself into thinking that I am fully in control of what happens (I’m not!) . . . and ultimately, trust God. He created my body, and the little girl inside me. He not only knows exactly what’s going to happen in about 6 weeks, but also is sovereign over everything. And he uses everything for good. So I have nothing to fret about.

What I miss: Physical independence, baby. And energy!

What I’m looking forward to: Um . . . physical independence and energy? Baby?

Husband update: He’s been encouraging me to respect my body’s limitations and let him do things for me. He’s challenged me to prioritize my health (and Alice’s health) by exerting self control and deciding not to move that box, or not to bend over to pick up a pile of books. And also, he’s been unfailingly patient when I’ve failed to act wisely.

In short, a better companion has never been seen.

Have a good weekend everybody! And if you’re in the U.S. (and have a nice employer), enjoy your Labor Day off!

15 thoughts on “34 Weeks

  1. Jenny @ Words On Wendhurst

    Maybe try thinking of it this way – it’s not that you’re losing your independence, it’s that you’re taking advantage of the fact that you can be extra spoiled by your husband right now. Then, once little Alice is born, you can pour all those extra spoils into her! 🙂

  2. Joanne

    Adorable as usual! And I’m glad to hear you’re taking full advantage of all your new neighborhood has to offer…especially those delicious breakfasts!

  3. giselle

    I think it’s funny b/c I’m a total princess. I’m ok with people doing things for me – I actually prefer it that way. haha.

    You look wonderful, btw. I can’t wait to see baby Alice!

  4. Amy

    I got extremely nervous listening to all my friend’s horror birth stories. And then mine (the first one, anyway… #2 was breech, the little stinker) couldn’t have been easier. Pushed her out in 2 hours! Everyone and every delivery is so different. You’ll do great!

  5. Veronica

    I’ve never been pregnant but I can get the independence thing and know I’d struggle asking for help too. I struggle with it in any situation and try to avoid it at all costs, which is unfortunately why I sometimes don’t’ take my burdens to God right away but try to bear them alone. Dumb.

    I volunteered to work the holiday as I need the extra annual leave (I chose to earn 8 hours annual leave rather than holiday pay as I’m going to be needing some time off in November and have pretty much used it all up). So hows about you enjoy your holiday a little extra for me? 🙂

  6. Suzie

    Of course you have to get to know your neighborhood, I’d be doing the same. You will fit back into your clothes within a week. Mark my words. I didn’t gain a lot of weight either and was back in my clothes in no time. It’s so funny that you can still do the disappearing act. Everyone’s story of giving birth is different, you will do fine. Keep that great positive attitude and all will go well 🙂

  7. Kate

    So happy for you Jenna. You look and sound great. I love that you have the idea to lay low and get to know your baby. In some cultures the tradition is to not leave the house for 40 days (watch the guests too)! I love to think of you near by, settling in, and waiting for baby Alice. Have you tried the spinach pie at Devon Market? And the pico de gallo, feta, and sushi too.

  8. Terri @ that's some good cookin'

    Jenna, it has been so long since I took the time to read your blog. I’m so sorry because I have obviously missed some really great stuff. I let the complexities of my life draw me into a wad of….something….unpleasant. (Let’s not give it a name ;)). Reading your blog this evening has been so fun; I’ve even laughed and cried. Thanks for sharing your life and including your gratitude to God. Your neighbors are lucky to have you! Alice is lucky to have a momma with a long torso. She’s probably hanging out in there, all stretched out like she’s lying on a chaise lounge, sipping mint juleps, and listening to the Beach Boys. That doesn’t go together, does it…mint juleps and the Beach Boys? Funny though.

    Good for you on the Anne of Green Gables DVD’s. Totally some of our ultimate family favorites. We watch the whole Anne series every year the week between Christmas and New Year’s as a part of our “Favorite Movie Marathon”. Another series that we have to watch is the A&E version of Pride and Prejudice with Colin Firth as Mr. Darcy. If you’ve never seen this mini-series, add it to your stash. It’s totally addictive.

    I’m taking up to much space, so I’ll stop writing just as soon as I say this last thing: You look so dang cute preggers!

    1. Jenna Post author

      Hey Terri! I’m so tickled to hear that the Anne of Green Gables DVD’s are among your family favorites! =) And I ABSOLUTELY LOVE that version of Price and Prejudice (and own it . . . and plan to watch it when Alice and I are chilling out during her first few weeks of life).

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  10. Marcia @Frugal Healthy Simple

    Found you via Joanne…yes, you are right on not knowing what you will get with childbirth.

    I planned a birth similar to my first childbirth. Hospital, some pain, epidural, new baby.

    What I got was fast and furious, 2nd son born about an hour after arriving and no pain killers. 🙁 I was not happy, especially since my husband was missing for the first half hour (delivering our son to a friend’s house). But we got the latch on and my sweet pea is 8 weeks old.

    Good luck! Enjoy your last few weeks. I hope you have a great birth.

    1. Jenna Post author

      Wow! Congratulations! Thanks for the well wishes–and thanks for sharing your story. I’m trying to stay mentally open to anything. =)

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